Time for Round 2

All summer I wanted to come back to the island and get back into it. Now that I'm finally here and classes will be starting in full swing tomorrow, I'm nervous. I want a few more extra days off!! It's scary enough starting med school, but then to add in the factor of repeating a year - there's even more terrifying.

Oh well, here's to August 2012!

Unsure

I haven't checked my midterm grades yet. I'm probably the only person that hasn't! I know I failed Anatomy & Biochem and I've already mentally prepared myself that I'm going to decel, and yet I still haven't checked. I don't know what's stopping me or holding me back. But one of these days, I'll actually work up the courage and check. 

Is there something wrong with me?

I made so many mistakes during my first couple of weeks of med school. And I mean, SOOOO many mistakes all in regards to my studying tactics and really trying to figure out what works. I got so behind on the material, that I've been playing catch-up ever since. I really wish I can just start over, without actually having to start over (decel). Needless to say, I'm just trying to pass midterms at this point. I've figured out a studying tactic/procedure and know I can do well on the finals which will even out my grades a bit. But it seems everyone around me is shooting for the A and is confident enough to get at least a B, but really studying their butt off for the A.

Am I the only one that got this behind?? Am I the only one who is just merely trying to pass??

Right now, the eve (or 2 nights) before my first midterm (biochem) I'm not confident that I'll pass. There is still so much I need to review and study. But, I'm going to stay confident and do the best I can at this point. There really isn't anything else I can do, and I have no time to waste on worrying.

Good luck to all for midterms!! Rock it!! 

Insomnia

Post unifieds, I've been suffering from Insomnia. Normally, I would welcome not being able to sleep, except...

• I'm mentally drained so I can't actually be productive while awake
• I'm awake all night trying to sleep, and then finally feel sleepy at 7am and sleep until about 2pm --> ruining my entire day!
• End up taking long duration of naps during the day when I should be studying!

It's getting REALLY annoying. I have less than a week (or EXACTLY) a week until my first midterm and I need all the hours studying I can get. I would like to sleep when I'm mentally drained, and be efficient during normal hours of the day instead of being tired. ARGH! Please send your well wishes for these next ~2 weeks. I will really them!

Officially less than two weeks...

It's officially less than two weeks until the slew of Midterms start. AKA Hell week #1 of many. Unifieds didn't go too well for me, or not at least as well as I wanted to (except for Anatomy - I did better than expected -- how did that happen?!). But the good/positive/optimistic news is that I've learned a lot about how to study.

For the first couple of weeks, I would attend lecture (4 hours long), and then watch all those lectures online again - which would take me a good 6 hours, with all the pausing and note taking. Obviously, I couldn't finish watching all the lectures that day, so it would pile up for the weekend. And by the time the weekend came around, all I would be doing is watching the lectures and playing catch-up. I then realized that I learn better on my own than going to class, so I started skipping a few classes here and there, and that caused me to get even more behind! By the time Unifieds came around, I was just trying to get caught up! I didn't have enough time to go over the material and actually study it.

Now I've been going to lecture, absorbing whatever I can in the 4 hours, and only watching the slides where I had absolutely no clue what was going on. I've learned that it's not important to write down every single thing the professor says, but rather understand the big picture; the other stuff will come with repetition.

I just want to get through midterms. I know how to study now, and I just want to start on a clean plate! These next two weeks are going to be CRAZYY - to say the least, but I'm optimistic that I'll survive.